I have an account on Facebook. Not a shocker or anything, but today I shared that it was a sad day for me. Not surprising given stuff happening in my life right now.
Someone asked why’d I would share my private sentiments in a public forum. Truth be told I don’t see my sentiments as private though because I think there’s much to be gained from a sharing situation. I’m sure there are plenty out there who have been in my shoes. I can’t be the first dad in his late thirties to get divorced. Sometimes it feels like I am the only one, but I know it’s definitely not the case.
To the casual observer, sure it may seem odd to post a vague statement online about how I’m feeling. The reward though is easy to find. Allowing myself to explain why I’m sad to various people encourages me to take a step back and assess where I am and how far I’ve come. It is a good thing in my eyes. It wasn’t my attempt to pander, it was merely what was truly on my mind.
Why the sadness you ask? The house we purchased together is now officially vacant. There are memories in every corner of the house. Going in my daughter’s vacant room made me quite sad. It was her first room, the only room she knew prior to my moving out at the end of April. All the diapers, decorations, and sleepless nights spent in that room. I know I know, the memories will always be there, it just made me stop and pause a bit.
I’m honestly thrilled my ex-wife found a cute place to live in a fun part of town I’m relieved we are friends through all this, working with her to make the best decisions for our amazing daughter. Tough days will happen, yet l’d like to point out I’m at peace with my new and evolving life. I have much to be thankful for during this Week of Thanks.